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For the past few weeks I've been sleeping a lot. and when I'm awake, I've been extremely tired. At first I thought it was mild depression (because you know sometimes we have our rough patches) but now I've had the desire to work and create, but putting it on paper has been such a strenuous task. it wears me out to draw just one thing. Even sitting tires me out. So I was left puzzled, what on earth could this be?
and then it hit me.
Mold.
last year you may remember, the AC unit flooded my room and destroyed a lot of my content in the process.
well that incident soaked a large portion of the apartment and it was wet for a long time. Usually when that's the case Mold usually forms in the aftermath if not treated properly.
(and we all know that in this craphole of an apartment, that's very likely)
Now I've not got it confirmed yet, but the Mold would explain why I feel so heavy and exhausted all the time.
I have to laugh because after living here for a little over the year, I've had to
For the past few weeks I've been sleeping a lot. and when I'm awake, I've been extremely tired. At first I thought it was mild depression (because you know sometimes we have our rough patches) but now I've had the desire to work and create, but putting it on paper has been such a strenuous task. it wears me out to draw just one thing. Even sitting tires me out. So I was left puzzled, what on earth could this be?
and then it hit me.
Mold.
last year you may remember, the AC unit flooded my room and destroyed a lot of my content in the process.
well that incident soaked a large portion of the apartment and it was wet for a long time. Usually when that's the case Mold usually forms in the aftermath if not treated properly.
(and we all know that in this craphole of an apartment, that's very likely)
Now I've not got it confirmed yet, but the Mold would explain why I feel so heavy and exhausted all the time.
I have to laugh because after living here for a little over the year, I've had to
- get rid of my bed
- will have to get rid of the majority of my furniture due to water/bed bug damage.
- replace a majority of my wardrobe
I swear after the year I've had 2016 must be filled with wondrous things if the law of Karma is real.
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It's been 3 months since I decided to quit my job and pursue art as a full-time career. It's been...challenging? Different? Sobering? We'll go with all of the above. While I feel as though I have not provided enough to you guys, I also feel I have not done enough to build at my foundation as an artist and have not risen up to the challenge of this new path in life. While I have made adoptables which have largely carried me through these past three months, I feel as though I need to be making and contributing more. I still have owed artand I feel as though my Patreon has left much to be desired. On top of that I understand a lot of non-Patrons don't like Patreon and don't want to join. So I think it's time we remedy all my concerns. A Thank You First off I want to thank each and everyone one of you. from the the Favorites, comments, monetary support, and those who just chat with me on Discord. I would not be anything without you and I am truly Thankful for you. New Places to Support I
Two Weeks Notice
Hello everyone! big news on my end. As the title suggests, I put in my two weeks notice at my job. To put it shortly, my confidence in the job was shaken when management pulled me aside and demoted me. I told them I couldn't take that pay cut So I initially put in my notice then. After about a day my boss came back in and told me i could go work for used cars at a different location. I'd still be getting a pay cut but it'd only be for a dollar less rather than $4.50. So I took that job hoping to keep my income steady but as I worked I found i couldn't commit. I wasn't happy adjusting to everything and on top of that I felt I couldn't believe in management. So I found myself growing more and more unhappy and stressed. Finally this morning I didn't want to come into work. I got myself to dress and get on the road but as I drove up I grew more and more depressed. finally i caught my boss and told him it wasn't going to work out. I wasn't satisfied with anything and couldn't push myself
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"I just want it to be my best work." This is probably the worst thing I tell myself during my creative process. Every time I do A piece with a lot of potential gets stuck on the metaphorical back burner and almost never sees completion. I'm currently sitting on a pile of art, stories, and commissions that stretches back almost a decade because I lost confidence in my own ability as I was working on them. This is my perhaps my greatest fault at least, as an artist. What's worse is that I often find myself drifting into negative thoughts because, "I could've created something great back in my 20s" but didn't because I let my own manufactured pressure get to me. What I've been trying to do lately is identify the process of how I get to this position in the first place. I've found that I've actually been having doubts as soon as I put pencil to paper. As such I'll start posting "WIPs" to friends, or on Twitter, or on Discord in order to gauge reactions. The problem with this
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By the way, for your mold problem, you might find this link to be rather interesting, if informative at least : www.cdc.gov/mold/faqs.htm